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Tuesday, 11 April 2006

...............................sigh

even though she pushes him away
shes saying -- stay with me <3

sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past; stop planning the future; stop trying to figure out precisely how we feel; stop deciding with our mind what we want our heart to feel; & sometimes we just have to go with "whatever happens... happens.."

She's scared because she's
finally realizing how much
he really means to her

Someone should sue Disney for planting the ideas
in little kids heads that every girl has a prince
& everything ends up happily ever after...

I'm the girl, the one who always loses. The one with the fake smile and the girl who seems to be so strong but continues to break. That girl who's always there and seems to have no problems of her own. The one who holds back tears until she's off the phone...

theres only so much pain one teenage
girl's heart can take & you my dear have
exceeded the limits.

Putting a fake smile on
is like pretending to love someone
when you dont.

Lying in bed,
my music blasting
i don't wanna hear a thing
because me crying is always lasting.

underneath the bedsheet covers crying herself to sleep,

reruns of her living nightmare pass through her mind

i'm a strong girl, keeping my shit in line »

even when the tears are streaming down my face,

i still manage to say, "i'm fine."

WHEN THEY'RE SAD-
little girls CRY
when they grow up,
they become big girls
and WHEN BIG GIRLS ARE SAD..
they..
still cry.

THE SCARiEST THiNG ABOUT FALLiN` iN LOVE?

-- GETTiN` HURT.

THE SCARiEST THiNG ABOUT GETTiN` HURT?

-- NOT BEiN` ABLE TO LOVE AGAiN

THE SCARiEST THiNG ABOUT NOT LOViN` AGAiN?

-- BEiN` ALONE » FOREVER «

walking in the hallways with my head up high

never will you see all the tears i've ever cried

I hate when people ask me if im okay

because it just reminds me of how im not

it's like once you've been hurt you're so
scared to get attached again like you
have this fear that every person you start
to like is going to break your heart

Saturday, 08 April 2006

all she wants to hear is him
calling her beautiful right when
shes about to give up on everything <3

&& there'll be torn up photos, and lonely nights,
cursing, crying, and drawn out fights.
and a brand new start;
broken promises for broken hearts



oh, yeah, yeah. if your definition of "ok" is having the
strong desire to draw a warm bath & slit your wrists,
then i am peachy.
++ dawson's creek



growing up sucks. and not all kisses are magic. and most boys do not live up to your expectations. but there are those times when everything- i mean love, romance, relationships- it all falls together perfectly and it's incredible. it's those moments, no matter how depressingly few and far between, that make growing up worth it.
++ dawson's creek


a best friend is a sister that destiny *
forgot to give you



God made us best friends because He knew our parents
would never be able to handle us being sisters <3



she's just a little too scared to get close to
anyone because everyone that said
'` i'll be there `' ..left.



Maybe there are no right moments, right guys,
right answers, maybe sometimes you just
have to say what's in your heart. -- Sex & The City --

i guess things happen for a reason..tears eventually
fade & one day everything will be exactly how it is
supposed to be..moving on is a process. you have
to promise yourself you`re really ready to let go..



& she wants to be beautiful ;
more than anything in the world



Someday I'll be happy
will someone tell me when will that be?
Somewhere I lost track of what's right
& now I'm stuck on the sidelines
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
not gonna take it any longer
It's time to take back control of my life
* Plain White T's *

Tuesday, 04 April 2006

hey everyone well life has been pretty awesome the past few weeks.. lets see my family is awesome umm church is getting better i got to meet my new youth minster he is pretty awesome and ya things with henry are awesome im so glad we are together he is so awesome and everything with my friends are awesome i have the most awesome best friend ashliegh and ya i love life right now and ya well i got my dresss for banquet wooohooo its so cute i love it its black and awesome its vintage and ya well im going to go because ..i can lol byes

love yall

stephanie

its like once you've been hurt,
your so scared to get attatched again
like you have this fear that every person
you start to fall for is gonna break your heart..

one day you look at a person and see
more than you did the day before like
a switch was just flicked somewhere
and that person who was just a friend
is suddenly the only person you can
[ i m a g i n e ] yourself being with

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hello everyone my name is stephanie and im 15 yes i am lol but ya i love god with all my heart and ya also i love all my friends and other stuff im just to lazy to type it all so ya lol ....